she lives in my mind

I love her and miss her;
She is no longer in my mind
She is just not here anymore
And yet she is
She still is made of dreams and hopes
She still is made of smiles and sounds
Of smells, touch and glares
She is made out of you, all of you
She has that perfect combination
She is just perfect for me
I weep for her, I haven’t met her
She is hidden, she is a mystery
I miss thinking about her
Especially these days
My mind is not the same
I fear for my loss of her
I fear for not ever remembering who I drew
Who I have always wanted
I fear to have met her already…
And not being able to acknowledge her
The burden of love for her can be at times so hard
So uneasy to continue, I wish…
I wish I couldn’t and that I wouldn’t
But I must always be strong for her
I promised her, and I smiled at her
My mind is jut wandering for her
Waiting for her to return to my dreams,
To my nights, to me
I miss seeing her smile, and her tenderness
Feeling her so alive, kissing her so deeply in my dreams
My mind wishes always wishes to be able to see her face
I spend so many nights making love to the dream
Making love to her words, to her smile
Oh God, her smile and the way she looks at me
I become hers even if it’s for a split second
Yet I haven’t met her
And my heart cracks,
My heart opens a void when I miss her and think about that one girl
The one that just…


From the mind of Cogliostro