What is a hole?
A hole is that emptiness where my heart used to be
A hole is the space my dreams were
A hole is the lack of drive, and emotion I have now
Nothing excites me anymore
I have but too little to look forward to
I have nothing ahead of me
Being numb is a common feeling
Being alone is such a lack of surprise
I am well put as a huge fail of epic proportions
I fail as a person since I just don’t seem to know what is next,
What to do, or just what to think, I just live without a reason
I fail as a friend because I have none, because I run everyone away
Because I have no sense of live besides me
I fail as a friend because I fell
I fail as a professional, I just don’t know what to do, where to follow
I fail as a student since I stop caring
I fail as a son a long time ago and as a brother just the same time
I failed to myself because I can’t seem to focus I can’t seem to keep my own promises
I can’t be happy; I can’t do what I want
I feel trapped, I feel without escape, I feel darkness approaching
I feel it so close, I felt it a few times already just waiting, lurking for me to embrace it
I want to, I need to feel something, and I just don’t know what
Everyone moves forward and I just move backwards,
I can’t make up my mind on anything
I feel crying, I feel screaming, I feel alone, I want to see her and hate her, yell at her
I want to stop feeling guilty, I want to change
I want to be able to tell her scream at her, ruin her, let her know, and just steal her
I feel the void, because I am blind, stupid, human I am a human waste
I will recover, I know but when
In the meantime, I relish the pity moments I have and the tiny seconds of life
I asked the question, what is a hole?
I am a hole, an empty hole…
Feel me with your heart give me your soul so I can be whole again
What is a hole?
From the mind of Cogliostro
