It is a pain on the sides of my neck,

it consumes me,

it moves from that place stomping its way to the brain,

the forehead to be more accurate,

it makes me want to scream or just take someone down

with words or by force

It is a killer instinct that lays dormant,

that sleeps without end

until such time requires it to awake and yet it does nothing.

The spikes of pain torture my thoughts ,

Oh, sweet pain! How I missed it.

Now I cannot listen to the tunes of desolation, nor the tunes of calm

now there is no tune, only noise and annoyance.

To grab you and just enjoy your suffering...

The tremors appear, the rage oozes from within me,

I am rude, guilty and innocent

I do not care but to quench my thirst

I want to get even

I am a caged demon

I can't wait to get my evil ways

My pen is mad, my anger is lustful

but I care about just the payback

and destruction of it all.

From the mind of Cogliostro

To not know

To not know

To not know who or what you are,

such a boring life

not knowing who or what you are

most would say it's fun

every day is to discover one's self

but maybe I am describing and approaching this in a wrong way

Maybe I do know who or what I am

but I am definitely afraid of the answer

Maybe I am afraid of knowing or being certain of it

Maybe it is not about who or what I am

Maybe it is about who I want and it looks I want all of them and none

All the girls, all those voices    

From the mind of Cogliostro

She has a certain smile

she has a certain look

she is a dream

she is a reality that I have yet to meet

she is that one girl

the girl I met and smiled to

but I couldn't see

she is here now

next to me as I write this down

but she will disappear

when I close my mind

when I wake up and open my eyes

she is gone

but just for a while.

 

From the mind of Cogliostro

The Bad Me

I am bad
I am bad for myself and others

I feel like breaking

I feel like exploding

I feel bad

A day does not go by without me thinking on a bad self

I do not represent what many think they see

I represent a dark entity

I represent a void, a soulless being

I enjoy loneliness more than I care for to talk about

I hurt

I will hurt

I am pain

I am sorry I did this to all of you
but honestly I am not

bad I am

From the mind of Cogliostro

Not my life

Am I crazy or just dreaming

this is not my life

this is a borrowed life

of a self torturing idiot

an idiot whose only good deed is...

well, he doesn't have any

this is not my life

this is the beginning of an end

the end of a mindless life

a mind which despises almost

everything and anything

I see with contempt,

I see with anger and envy,

I see with greed and manipulative intentions

I see without seeing,

I see crazy and dreaming

this is not my life.

 


From the mind of Cogliostro

Stress
Death

Boredom

Insanity

Anger

Deception

Disappointment

Envy

Hate

Loneliness

a smile?

 
From the mind of Cogliostro