My heart is in pain

And I hate her
and I love her
the void she left in me
the thorn in my heart
the lies she told
how life can be so unfair
how did she come to be so
why is it that way now

Specially now I feel
so lonely more than ever before
in my heart I wish to yell
to scream at her and tell her so much, and how much she hurt me
tell her what I think now, but I cant
because I  promise her not to hurt her

My heart is divided and broken
my soul is lost and empty
I need her and miss her
wish that "that" never happened but it had to

My heart is in pain
My life is incomplete
yet so much to do and see
I’m shattered by the lies and memories
I’m lonely again, lying to myself
showing myself with a fake smile
fake words of a restless soul
I’m not ok I don’t know if I will ever be
I’m lonely no one to talk to
but for a few minutes the world doesn’t stop
but I have
a few moments in which I can share , open and release
myself always restraining who I am
and always holding back
avoiding talking to her because I’m not in her life
I’m not part of it and I must let go

she is moving on and leaving me behind
I wish I could do the same
that I could but when , how, I don’t know I cant its so hard and painful

My heart is in pain
I cant write anymore
too much has been said already
and I must stop
I must move on
and I thank you for the good times
I thank you for the time
and for talking to me

Love you all and





                         .........good bye 

From the mind of Cogliostro